Monday, August 30, 2010

This time we're not giving up

Let's make this last forever.

School in 3 days.

I'm ready.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Day 30

Dear reflection in the mirror,

*Crumples up paper and throws stone at mirror for dramatic effect*


Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Day 29

Dear someone I want to tell everything to, but am too scared,

Well, this is it I guess. You've already sat me down to talk before and it was really strange. It was just sweat and tears and just awkward. Someone interrupted and ended the conversation, so I guess we'll save it for another day.


Monday, August 23, 2010

Day 28

Dear someone that has changed my life,

For better or for worse, you've been there and even though it hasn't been quite a long time, it has helped so much. I hope things get better for you, you deserve something better than all of this. I'm still learning more about you everyday, and I'm glad.


Sunday, August 22, 2010

This is what you wanted, right?

Walking in, nothing seemed to make sense;
The rooms were awkward,
And the conversation:

The stereo blasted,
And the children laughed.
The times came,
and they went.

But since, he feels fulfillment,
Out of joy and forgetfulness.
He will only see one,
For the rest of his short life.

Day 27

Dear friendliest person I met for one day,

You're incredible. You're so positive and I can't believe you leave for college soon.


Saturday, August 21, 2010

Day 26

Dear last person I made a pinky promise to,



Last night

I was freaking out. It was one of the worst nights I had all summer probably. Thing after thing.

Life goes on, and things get better though:)

Friday, August 20, 2010

I wish

my life was like a tv show; you could just go through some bullshit, and at the end of the day everything is ok.

But everything isn't ok. It's a day-to-day struggle and I'm getting sick of it. Everything is just so irritating and I can't take it.

And the fact that I only talk to the same people everyday makes it worse.

I'm just caving.

Bring the thunder.

You're so fucking pathetic, I swear. You are all high and mighty, and then your girlfriend dumps you and, HOLY SHIT, look at you! Now you're scraping back for her, and you have no friends, and look like an asshole to everyone. Congratulations; you're a tool.

Day 25

Dear someone I know is going through the worst of times,

I know how you feel. Your closest friend is leaving you to move on with his life and you're left in the dust. Buck up, you'll see him and me soon enough.


Thursday, August 19, 2010



But the lights coming towards you,
Are blarring.
The proof?
The stars.

And they hurt.
Oh, they hurt your eyes
To the point of pink.
The stars.

The music is luping.
While you check the clock,
It reads 10:38.
The stars.


Day 24

Dear someone who gave me the best memory,

Most memories go to you buddy. Keep on truckin' <3


Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Day 23

Dear last person I kissed,

Well, what is there left to say? I moved on and you still haven't. It's been months and it's sad how much I try and smooth things it won't change. See yaa.


Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Day 22

Dear someone I want to give a second chance to,

I give out multiple chances usually. And usually they're still mistreating me, so I stopped.


Monday, August 16, 2010

Day 21

Dear someone i judged by their first impression,

Wow, this was in like 8th grade when I did not know you. We're friends, but you're a clear-as-glass shitty one, so I'll live day-to-day life as if we're as close as you think, but I see the hints and know how you truly feel. My first impression was correct; you're a douche.


Sunday, August 15, 2010

Day 20

I'm really bad at keeping up with this.

Dear person that broke my heart the hardest,

There are two people I'd like to write to:

Person one,
We dated for months upon months. None of my friends liked you, but they didn't know you like I did. You were different, we clicked. Then you broke up with me, over text message, while i was out with friends; that was heartless. I got over it, just because you downgraded hardcore, and we don't talk anymore. Oh well.

Person two,
Although we did not talk for long, nor did we date, I liked you so much. You were and still are considered perfect to me. I hope what you chose was worth it.


Friday, August 13, 2010

Day 19

Dear someone that pesters your mind,

Constantly. You're always there.


Thursday, August 12, 2010

I honestly

cannot stand when couples publicly do anything.
Whether it be makingout in front of me or even showing publicly how awesome their date was this weekend or how much they miss each other on their facebook walls.

You can use text messages or phone calls or face to face conversations for this, not my facebook home page.

And in reality, I know you're just doing this because you WANT people to know how awesome your relationship in, when in reality it probably sucks and you're just a cover-up.


Day 18

I guess I'm really bad at keeping track of doing this every day, lol.

Dear the person I wish I could be,

You just have what I want, no matter how many times you tell me to be happy with myself.


Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Day 17

I visited Seton Hall today. Wasn't impressed.

Dear someone(s)* from my childhood,

I miss that, but you're so screwed up now...all of you.


Monday, August 9, 2010

I don't understand

why I feel like this.

Happiness has come and gone in sparatic bursts and I can't even describe it. Everyone has kind of just disappeared and I don't know.

This is so confusing.

Day 16

Dear someone not in my state,

I can't believe the things we've been through.


Saturday, August 7, 2010

Day 15

Dear someone I miss the most,

I guess it would be you, even though I don't show it that well when we communicate. Leaving my life at such an important year really took me through a rough time and still to this day do I suffer. You try and win me back but I feel like it's all just a scheme because of what you did in the past. It's uncomfortable.


Friday, August 6, 2010

Day 14

Dear someone I've drifted away from,

Like yesterday's blog, I regret nothing. We drifted for a reason and that is that.
However, I would like to comment on someone specifically:
You lost all of your friends and NOW are questioning why after a whole year? HAHAH. Funny. I'm glad we drifted because after countless times of me trying to rekindle our friendship and you refusing, I gave up and now see what everyone else does. You helped me a lot but I don't even care at this point because all of it basically flew out the window after you and your girlfriend broke up. You turned into an asshole and I'm glad things ended the way they did.


Thursday, August 5, 2010

Angsty Poetry

"But our past," she muttered.
So soft and pure.
Sobbing, he pushes her out of the way,
And leaves the room.

His thoughts were perturbed,
And his palms, sweaty.
Desperate and broken,
He knew he could win her over,
No matter what.

He sat, he listened.
She saw change.
Astonished and overwhelmed,
The despair disappeared.
Problem solved.

But the crisis remains,
In the form of a smoggy overcast,
Surrounding her intellect.
And everything will be okay,
If you believe it is okay.

Day 13

Dear someone I wish would forgive me,

No regrets. Don't care about you. Boom.


Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Day 12

Dear person who caused me the most pain/hurt me the most,

You're an asshole. Honestly? I made a mistake. Usually people keep things between themselves, and I thought I could call you a friend. I'm glad we don't associate, and I'm glad to know you dropped out of school, and I'm glad to know you got fat, and I'm glad you're defined as scum by everyone in this town, because you truly, truly deserve that title.


Tuesday, August 3, 2010

I visited

TCNJ today. It was nice. I went with Emily and her mother. Next week I'm going with them to Seton Hall. I'm excited for what is to come.

Day 11

My "Aunt" just passed, this is fitting.

Dear deceased person,

I wish when I visited you in the hospital the week before your passing that we could have talked. I wish cancer didn't get the best of you. I hope your life was everything you had hoped for and more. I love you.


Monday, August 2, 2010

Day 10

Dear someone I don't talk to as much as I'd like,

I don't talk to you as much for a reason. Let's keep it that way.


Sunday, August 1, 2010

Day 9

Dear someone I wish I could meet,

I wish we could see each other. I know one day in the next few months we will. If not, then I know we will never get the opportunity again.